cold turkey

​Looking up at the sky, I see the blazing stars, in the distance there’s a sound, the acceleration of cars, the feel of the cool night breeze as the tall grass seemed to flow, i take a step forward looked up and opened my eyes to find I’m on a bench on a hot summer day, the Sun blazing, my mind pacing as I’m struggling to find away, to keep the whole inside me calm, and at bay, as i already predicted my chest felt constricted, my dam of emotion begins to break, I pickup the key pass to over by pass my minds panic and hurtful heart ache, for days Ill forget,my mind all vivid, my tendencies to stay awake, but when it is  all gone and you start to feel wrong, it comes back to escape your fate.